On Wednesdays we wear PINK

What should I do about the wild and the tame? The wild heart that wants to be free, and the tame heart that wants to come home. I want to be held. I don't want you to come too close. I want you to scoop me up and bring me home at nights. I don't want to tell you where I am. I want to keep a place among the rocks  where no one can find me. I want to be with you. Here's the thing. On the surface we are fine. We can see each other and act civilized. We can pretend to care how each other are doing. But below the surface-inside, we are like an infectious disease.  And every time I see you that disease we are will hurt so much it will feel like its coming out my throat. We have to damage the surface in order to get to the unhealthy disease that we truly are.  We can pretend all we won't but we'll never get better and eventually- it will kill us. They looked for one another when nothing else was happening, the way you pick up a magazine or look in the cupboard for a snack. Not exactly by accident and not exactly on purpose. You could go out in the world and do new things and meet new people, and then you could come home and just sit on the stoop with someone you had never not known, and watch lightning bugs blink on and off.  I constantly wonder how my life looks in other people's eyes. Do they think I have it easy? Do they think  I have nothing going on for myself?  Or are the fascinated with who I am? The thing is that no one will ever know my whole story. No one will ever know the things I’ve had to overcome. Not even my closest friends,  not even my own family. The thing is that people are so quick to judge now a days. You  only see a person from what they want and allow you to see. I always try to look as put  together as if can and I guess that's my way of hiding from the truth. It’s just that way, everyone will assume that everything in my life is okay, that I never go through anything. If only everyone knew how broken I am, and how I’m holding on for dear life on this one last strand that's recently become very delicate. The truth is that no one really knows me.  No one will ever know me and sometimes that scares me, because no one will ever know  why I am the way I am. On Wednesday's we wear PINK! In the early days of film making, the people who worked on the sets were called movies.  The films were called motion pictures. The average person spends 25 years of their life doing this. What is it? - Sleeping   38% of Americans in a recent survey said they would not only change jobs but  also take a pay cut if they could bring this to work with them. What is it? – Their pet   According to survey, this is the number one food women crave during pregnancy. What is it? –   Peanut Butter During Bill Clinton’s entire eight year presidency, he only sent two e-mails.  One was to John Glenn when he was aboard the space shuttle, and the other  was a test of the e-mail system.   According to experts, over 50% of people who are bitten by a snake have this in common.  What is it?  – They had been drinking   According to a recent survey, 43% of Americans said they would  rather give this up in the morning than their cup of coffee.  What is it?– A shower   xoxo darlings,